I hadn't realized it has been so long since I have blogged. I have been really busy and in an on again / off again funk.
Here is my year at a glance in no particular order (my memory is sketchy so bare with me).
I self published my book Random Ish & Other Nonsense - If you haven't read it put it on your to do list.
I experienced the dating scene online - don't ask.
I celebrated another Birthday - thank you Lord.
I met a guy and I am in love - maybe...
My youngest child started High School
I reflected on my life and continued to work on me.
I laughed
I cried
I got pissed off and occasionally pissed on
I had a leak in my home and had to replace part of the floor
Dealt with that bitch Sandy
My relationship with family and friends strengthened
My relationship with other family and friends distanced
I made mistakes and owned up to them (most of them)
As the year is comes to an end and I realize that although I haven't always felt it I have been extremely fortunate and although my faith continues to struggle I continue to search for hope in the God of my understanding.
My heart and prayers go out to people who have lost loved ones or endured tragedies in 2012, as well as those who have managed to get up each day and put one foot in front of the other when all you really wanted to do was crawl under a rock or give up on life - kudos to you.
May 2013 bring you a peace, strength and courage within yourself and when possible may you share it with those around you who can't find their own.
Sissy
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
Monday, December 10, 2012
Holiday 10 for 10 and under...
My list of top 10 gifts under $10.
10. Poofy socks
9. Picture Frame
8. Fake Pashmina
7. Superhero Mug
6. Costume Jewelry
5. Calendar
4. Ornament
3. Framed Photo
2. Wine Stopper
1. Random Ish and Other Nonsense the Book
10. Poofy socks
9. Picture Frame
8. Fake Pashmina
7. Superhero Mug
6. Costume Jewelry
5. Calendar
4. Ornament
3. Framed Photo
2. Wine Stopper
1. Random Ish and Other Nonsense the Book
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Kudos....
To you - maker of elastic waist pants.
Screw you - decider that sizes should be configured by 2s. I am a 13 not a 14 and it matters to my ego. I use to be a 9 but had to wear 10....I guess my single digits will be kept to my shoe size.
Screw you - decider that sizes should be configured by 2s. I am a 13 not a 14 and it matters to my ego. I use to be a 9 but had to wear 10....I guess my single digits will be kept to my shoe size.
Saturday, November 3, 2012
Weathering this storm....
I admit I am spoiled. I like to have running water with temperature options. TV I can go without but I can certainly understand the desire to not miss the latest episode of The Walking Dead and Sons of Anarchy. It is also helpful to see where you are going and be warm.
Until we are faced with challenge we really don't realize how important some things are and the domino effect behind them.
Without water - no laundry, no flushing, no bathing, no drinking - nothing clean. That sticky thing on you hand will stay there.
No electricity - no elevators, nebulizer or dialysis machines, no atm, gas, cell phone service, transportation.
You worry about your loved ones and do your best to be there for as many people as you can while still trying to overcome yourself. Through these storms we discover who we are and what we are made of emotionally, physically and mentally.
You wake up and can't believe that this is happening but at the same time know you are actually really lucky that you don't have a worse case scenario. You are blessed with family and friends that actually show up and pull together. The ones who role up with water, hot food, soda & coffee (they are necessities) and clothes. People that realize you weren't going to leave your pets behind while you left to safety. Those that know food pantries exist but also know it is cold and you will be waiting in line for 3 hours with young children if they don't offer to watch your little ones. Try explaining to your bright eyed son why his 5 Birthday was the "worst ever."
Little by little things are being put back into place. I am so extremely fortunate. I was greatly inconvenienced, had to climb up and down stairs but don't live on the highest floor. I didn't have water but thankfully my mom did. We managed. I still have a home to go to and my friends (who I consider family) and blood relatives are good. We will do our best to help each other through the individual hardships doing what we can.
I saw people writing on FB about the marathon and their support for it to continue...I could only think they still had their electricity. Those who say - there are places you can go to for food and clothes - not thinking of the hours you have to wait in line while some employers expect you to still show up to work.
I am so damn lucky and I know it. I am so sorry for the loss that many have suffered and pray that those who have so much rebuilding to do find the strength and faith they need. Ask for help if you need it and take it if it is offered.
Until we are faced with challenge we really don't realize how important some things are and the domino effect behind them.
Without water - no laundry, no flushing, no bathing, no drinking - nothing clean. That sticky thing on you hand will stay there.
No electricity - no elevators, nebulizer or dialysis machines, no atm, gas, cell phone service, transportation.
You worry about your loved ones and do your best to be there for as many people as you can while still trying to overcome yourself. Through these storms we discover who we are and what we are made of emotionally, physically and mentally.
You wake up and can't believe that this is happening but at the same time know you are actually really lucky that you don't have a worse case scenario. You are blessed with family and friends that actually show up and pull together. The ones who role up with water, hot food, soda & coffee (they are necessities) and clothes. People that realize you weren't going to leave your pets behind while you left to safety. Those that know food pantries exist but also know it is cold and you will be waiting in line for 3 hours with young children if they don't offer to watch your little ones. Try explaining to your bright eyed son why his 5 Birthday was the "worst ever."
Little by little things are being put back into place. I am so extremely fortunate. I was greatly inconvenienced, had to climb up and down stairs but don't live on the highest floor. I didn't have water but thankfully my mom did. We managed. I still have a home to go to and my friends (who I consider family) and blood relatives are good. We will do our best to help each other through the individual hardships doing what we can.
I saw people writing on FB about the marathon and their support for it to continue...I could only think they still had their electricity. Those who say - there are places you can go to for food and clothes - not thinking of the hours you have to wait in line while some employers expect you to still show up to work.
I am so damn lucky and I know it. I am so sorry for the loss that many have suffered and pray that those who have so much rebuilding to do find the strength and faith they need. Ask for help if you need it and take it if it is offered.
"Hope is
important because it can make the present moment less difficult to bear. If
we believe that tomorrow will be better, we can bear a hardship today."
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- Thich Nhat Hanh
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"Do not think of
a painful experience as a dark time in your life. You emerge out of
everything learning something or becoming a better person. You realize who
your real friends are and how much your loved ones mean to you."
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- Colleen Ho
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Saturday, October 27, 2012
This too shall pass....
No one said life would be easy or are we prepared for how hard it can be until we are forced to find a strength inside ourselves that we didn't know existed.
Despite my sarcastic sense of humor, one of my strongest character traits is that of being empathetic (many times to a fault). What makes me this way is the memory of experiences that I have witnessed or personally had that caused hurt and humiliation.
There is a special kind of person that can, with malicious intent, inflict pain on someone be it emotionally, mentally or physically. Here is my question. Are you one of them?
Do you make fun of someone who is different or who doesn't conform to what you believe is a standard in this world? Do you seek out the wounded one because you know you can take advantage of them? Do you walk with or behind a group of people who do these things?
When I was growing up I was often teased about my weight. My mom would always tell me the "stick and stones" crap. I didn't know it was crap then but when she would say it to me my thoughts were the words and actions do hurt so I added these feelings to the growing "what is wrong with me" list.
Our thoughts, actions and feelings are ours to own. There will be times when we as individuals don't even understand the thoughts and feelings we are having - they are ours nonetheless, whether we choose to analyze, ignore or act on them. There is nothing wrong with us for having these feelings. They are feelings not facts. However, what we do with them is what makes us into the people we are. What kind of person are you? What kind of person do you want to be?
I look back on my youth and remember some of the hurtful things said and done to me. I remember feeling that it would go on forever. It doesn't. When we are young we don't always see how far ahead life goes. We only see up the block. There are several corners that we will need to turn and hills to climb. Life is an amazing thing. You are worth more than those hurtful things being thrown at you. It is a remarkable feeling to look back and be able to say "I got through that so fuck you!"
Life is full of mistakes and is a slow, grueling and growing process but don't let anyone else define who you are but more importantly don't give your future, the entire life you have ahead of you, to the words and actions or complete assholes. That is what they are, nothing comes out of them but vile human waste (and possibly corn).
You made a mistake or bad choice own it. It is yours to take and grow with, to share with someone who will do the same thing. DO NOT under any circumstance take yourself away from this world before your time. You were put here for a purpose - you are uniquely you, a gift that someone else needs in their life.
Despite my sarcastic sense of humor, one of my strongest character traits is that of being empathetic (many times to a fault). What makes me this way is the memory of experiences that I have witnessed or personally had that caused hurt and humiliation.
There is a special kind of person that can, with malicious intent, inflict pain on someone be it emotionally, mentally or physically. Here is my question. Are you one of them?
Do you make fun of someone who is different or who doesn't conform to what you believe is a standard in this world? Do you seek out the wounded one because you know you can take advantage of them? Do you walk with or behind a group of people who do these things?
When I was growing up I was often teased about my weight. My mom would always tell me the "stick and stones" crap. I didn't know it was crap then but when she would say it to me my thoughts were the words and actions do hurt so I added these feelings to the growing "what is wrong with me" list.
Our thoughts, actions and feelings are ours to own. There will be times when we as individuals don't even understand the thoughts and feelings we are having - they are ours nonetheless, whether we choose to analyze, ignore or act on them. There is nothing wrong with us for having these feelings. They are feelings not facts. However, what we do with them is what makes us into the people we are. What kind of person are you? What kind of person do you want to be?
I look back on my youth and remember some of the hurtful things said and done to me. I remember feeling that it would go on forever. It doesn't. When we are young we don't always see how far ahead life goes. We only see up the block. There are several corners that we will need to turn and hills to climb. Life is an amazing thing. You are worth more than those hurtful things being thrown at you. It is a remarkable feeling to look back and be able to say "I got through that so fuck you!"
Life is full of mistakes and is a slow, grueling and growing process but don't let anyone else define who you are but more importantly don't give your future, the entire life you have ahead of you, to the words and actions or complete assholes. That is what they are, nothing comes out of them but vile human waste (and possibly corn).
You made a mistake or bad choice own it. It is yours to take and grow with, to share with someone who will do the same thing. DO NOT under any circumstance take yourself away from this world before your time. You were put here for a purpose - you are uniquely you, a gift that someone else needs in their life.
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
I could have told you how this was going to end...
Man dies after live roach-eating contest in Florida.
Read more: Why you shouldn't eat bugs!
Published October 09, 2012
Associated Press
Read more: Why you shouldn't eat bugs!
Published October 09, 2012
Associated Press
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
What's for dinner...
Yesterday was one of THOSE days for me.
I had a headache and felt like crying for every little thing. I didn't want to be at work or at home and I didn't want to talk to anyone – but as you and I know our wants and needs often have to take a back door to life's demands.
When I finally arrived home I was welcomed with the daily evening greeting "what's for dinner?" Sighing I took 2 bootleg tylenol and went to the kitchen to see what I could throw together.
I decide to make arroz amarillo con salchichas (in English this is yellow rice and Vienna sausage). It was smelling pretty good. The rest of the story goes something like this:
[Teenager enters kitchen] "that smells good mom" [while lifting the lid off the pot]
[Teenager staring blankly at the pot] "I think the rice you used was bad."
Me: "Rice doesn't go bad like other items."
Teenager: "Maybe you used an old packet of sazon because it looks weird."
Me: "Drown it with ketchup!"
Teenager: "Really mom?"
Me: "Make the damn Bagel Bites."
Teenager: "Oh yeah – forgot we had those."
I had a headache and felt like crying for every little thing. I didn't want to be at work or at home and I didn't want to talk to anyone – but as you and I know our wants and needs often have to take a back door to life's demands.
When I finally arrived home I was welcomed with the daily evening greeting "what's for dinner?" Sighing I took 2 bootleg tylenol and went to the kitchen to see what I could throw together.
I decide to make arroz amarillo con salchichas (in English this is yellow rice and Vienna sausage). It was smelling pretty good. The rest of the story goes something like this:
[Teenager enters kitchen] "that smells good mom" [while lifting the lid off the pot]
[Teenager staring blankly at the pot] "I think the rice you used was bad."
Me: "Rice doesn't go bad like other items."
Teenager: "Maybe you used an old packet of sazon because it looks weird."
Me: "Drown it with ketchup!"
Teenager: "Really mom?"
Me: "Make the damn Bagel Bites."
Teenager: "Oh yeah – forgot we had those."
Thursday, September 6, 2012
This is complicated....
or at least those were the words spoken by my 14 year old HS freshman when I asked him to make mashed potatoes. Now keep in mind these were the Hungry Jack kind. They didn't require peeling, cutting, boiling, straining or an array of spices. It requires a measuring cup and a tablespoon and extremely basic ingredients. He is still exasperated because he is being required to do math and can't understand why chicken cutlet isn't a meal in itself.
Love my boy.
Love my boy.
Thursday, August 2, 2012
Flatulence...
Flatulence is the expulsion through the rectum of a mixture of gases that are byproducts of the digestive process of mammals and other animals. It is also referred to as a fart; the bodies natural potpourri; pinching the loaf and occasionally cutting the cheese.
Regardless of what you call it, depending on where you are when it occurs, who it happens to and the sound it makes will pretty much determine whether you will laugh or gag if it makes an appearance.
For example:
Just making a fart sound when someone is bending over can have a room laughing (it has to sound authentic). However, there is nothing funny about it if you are trapped in an elevator with someone who had a high a fiber lunch or in a steaming hot shower and one "gets away" - you might as well lock yourself in a garage with your car turned on because it engulfs you like an entity. There are times when you don't even know where it came from (unless of course it came from you).
How many times have you been on the train and someone lets one slip...all of a sudden everyone is looking around for an arrow pointing out the person who did it - guess what? That person is looking around also because they are not taking the blame.
In case you thought there was a point to this, well there isn't. It was just an "observation" made while in the shower. :(
Regardless of what you call it, depending on where you are when it occurs, who it happens to and the sound it makes will pretty much determine whether you will laugh or gag if it makes an appearance.
For example:
Just making a fart sound when someone is bending over can have a room laughing (it has to sound authentic). However, there is nothing funny about it if you are trapped in an elevator with someone who had a high a fiber lunch or in a steaming hot shower and one "gets away" - you might as well lock yourself in a garage with your car turned on because it engulfs you like an entity. There are times when you don't even know where it came from (unless of course it came from you).
How many times have you been on the train and someone lets one slip...all of a sudden everyone is looking around for an arrow pointing out the person who did it - guess what? That person is looking around also because they are not taking the blame.
In case you thought there was a point to this, well there isn't. It was just an "observation" made while in the shower. :(
Friday, July 27, 2012
Can someone please explain...
Can someone please explain…
Why Kristen Stewart (22) is getting all the shit for cheating on her BOYFRIEND Rob Pattinson (26)?
What about the MARRIED Rupert Sanders (41)?
Give me a friggin break. I am not saying it was a wise move on her part and that she should not accept some accountability but seriously she is still an impressionable young girl. He is a 41 year old handsome (apparently to some but not my cup of tea – I prefer coffee) male in a position of authority. What young girl wouldn't become infatuated. The media is going on a which hunt calling her a tramp? GTFOH with that bullshit. She made a mistake (as we all have). Learn from it and keep it moving. Is the media really going to drag this crap out like it is BIG HOLLYWOOD NEWS. For crying out loud Sherman Hemsley just passed away.
Why Kristen Stewart (22) is getting all the shit for cheating on her BOYFRIEND Rob Pattinson (26)?
What about the MARRIED Rupert Sanders (41)?
Give me a friggin break. I am not saying it was a wise move on her part and that she should not accept some accountability but seriously she is still an impressionable young girl. He is a 41 year old handsome (apparently to some but not my cup of tea – I prefer coffee) male in a position of authority. What young girl wouldn't become infatuated. The media is going on a which hunt calling her a tramp? GTFOH with that bullshit. She made a mistake (as we all have). Learn from it and keep it moving. Is the media really going to drag this crap out like it is BIG HOLLYWOOD NEWS. For crying out loud Sherman Hemsley just passed away.
MTA BS
MTA proposes strapping straphangers with $1 'green fee' on each new MetroCard
Surcharge would generate an estimated $20 million a year for transit authority. Goal is to reduce amount of MetroCards printed, discarded and hauled to landfill
Comments (33)By Pete Donohue / NEW YORK DAILY NEWS
Published: Thursday, July 26, 2012, 8:38 PM
Talking about how the train stations would be cleaner. REALLY? There are rats and all other kind of vermin down in the stations. The plastic card lying on the floor is the least of my worries. On another note, I am really curious as to the revenue the MTA makes from all those extra nickels and dimes they get from the unused & uneven amounts left on the MetroCards now - talking about giving us an extra quarter...
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
What's in a name?
What's in a name?
Is ugly equivalent to dirty?.
Examples of this are
Fly vs Dragon Fly – I won't think twice about smashing a fly with the daily newspaper but the Dragon Fly seems exotic and has that strip of bluish purple.
Moth vs Butterfly – Only the colors make them different in my eyes and why are white moths more acceptable then grey or black ones – racist I tell you.
Beetle vs Lady Bug – I am not going to front – I will take a quick step back from a beetle and possibly even leave a room. A Lady Bug however I will leave be.
Squirrel vs Rat (as far as I am concerned they are both dirty but people encourage squirrels to come to them for food – even give their kids peanuts to offer…fuck that – they are glorified rats).
I have heard stories of insects called stink bugs and hump back something or other….None of the names or stories make me a fan.
Roaches and waterbugs are in their own category. Maybe if they didn't have long antennae, weren't so damn fast and didn't pop when you step on them (shuttering at the thought). I can't help but wonder if they were a different color maybe they would be ok…but alas they are not so I will continue to clear a room and most likely knock down a child and pregnant lady while doing so if I see one – and Lord help whoever is near me if it is in flight.
Is ugly equivalent to dirty?.
Examples of this are
Fly vs Dragon Fly – I won't think twice about smashing a fly with the daily newspaper but the Dragon Fly seems exotic and has that strip of bluish purple.
Moth vs Butterfly – Only the colors make them different in my eyes and why are white moths more acceptable then grey or black ones – racist I tell you.
Beetle vs Lady Bug – I am not going to front – I will take a quick step back from a beetle and possibly even leave a room. A Lady Bug however I will leave be.
Squirrel vs Rat (as far as I am concerned they are both dirty but people encourage squirrels to come to them for food – even give their kids peanuts to offer…fuck that – they are glorified rats).
I have heard stories of insects called stink bugs and hump back something or other….None of the names or stories make me a fan.
Roaches and waterbugs are in their own category. Maybe if they didn't have long antennae, weren't so damn fast and didn't pop when you step on them (shuttering at the thought). I can't help but wonder if they were a different color maybe they would be ok…but alas they are not so I will continue to clear a room and most likely knock down a child and pregnant lady while doing so if I see one – and Lord help whoever is near me if it is in flight.
Saturday, July 21, 2012
What do you see?
I came across this on FB and thought it was a worthy share.
When an old man died in the geriatric ward of a nursing home in an Australian country town, it was believed that he had nothing left of any value.
Later, when the nurses were going through his meagre possessions, They found this poem. Its quality and content so impressed the staff that copies were made and distributed to every nurse in the hospital.
One nurse took her copy to Melbourne. The old man's sole bequest to posterity has since appeared in the Christmas editions of magazines around the country and appearing in mags for Mental Health. A slide presentation has also been made based on his simple, but eloquent, poem.
And this old man, with nothing left to give to the world, is now the author of this 'anonymous' poem winging across the Internet.
Cranky Old Man
What do you see nurses? . . .. . .What do you see?
What are you thinking .. . when you're looking at me?
A cranky old man, . . . . . .not very wise,
Uncertain of habit .. . . . . . . .. with faraway eyes?
Who dribbles his food .. . ... . . and makes no reply.
When you say in a loud voice . .'I do wish you'd try!'
Who seems not to notice . . .the things that you do.
And forever is losing . . . . . .. . . A sock or shoe?
Who, resisting or not . . . ... lets you do as you will,
With bathing and feeding . . . .The long day to fill?
Is that what you're thinking?. .Is that what you see?
Then open your eyes, nurse .you're not looking at me.
I'll tell you who I am . . . . .. As I sit here so still,
As I do at your bidding, .. . . . as I eat at your will.
I'm a small child of Ten . .with a father and mother,
Brothers and sisters .. . . .. . who love one another
A young boy of Sixteen . . . .. with wings on his feet
Dreaming that soon now . . .. . . a lover he'll meet.
A groom soon at Twenty . . . ..my heart gives a leap.
Remembering, the vows .. .. .that I promised to keep.
At Twenty-Five, now . . . . .I have young of my own.
Who need me to guide . . . And a secure happy home.
A man of Thirty . .. . . . . My young now grown fast,
Bound to each other . . .. With ties that should last.
At Forty, my young sons .. .have grown and are gone,
But my woman is beside me . . to see I don't mourn.
At Fifty, once more, .. ...Babies play 'round my knee,
Again, we know children . . . . My loved one and me.
Dark days are upon me . . . . My wife is now dead.
I look at the future ... . . . . I shudder with dread.
For my young are all rearing .. . . young of their own.
And I think of the years . . . And the love that I've known.
I'm now an old man . . . . . . .. and nature is cruel.
It's jest to make old age . . . . . . . look like a fool.
The body, it crumbles .. .. . grace and vigour, depart.
There is now a stone . . . where I once had a heart.
But inside this old carcass . A young man still dwells,
And now and again . . . . . my battered heart swells
I remember the joys . . . . .. . I remember the pain.
And I'm loving and living . . . . . . . life over again.
I think of the years, all too few . . .. gone too fast.
And accept the stark fact . . . that nothing can last.
So open your eyes, people .. . . . .. . . open and see.
Not a cranky old man .
Look closer . . . . see .. .. . .. .... . ME!!
Remember this poem when you next meet an older person who you might brush aside without looking at the young soul within. We will all, one day, be there, too!
PLEASE SHARE THIS POEM (originally written by Dave Griffith)
The best and most beautiful things of this world can't be seen or touched. They must be felt by the heart!
Very Respectfully,
Scott Sonnon
www.breathinggift.com (My free book and video gift to you.)
One nurse took her copy to Melbourne. The old man's sole bequest to posterity has since appeared in the Christmas editions of magazines around the country and appearing in mags for Mental Health. A slide presentation has also been made based on his simple, but eloquent, poem.
And this old man, with nothing left to give to the world, is now the author of this 'anonymous' poem winging across the Internet.
Cranky Old ManWhat do you see nurses? . . .. . .What do you see?
What are you thinking .. . when you're looking at me?
A cranky old man, . . . . . .not very wise,
Uncertain of habit .. . . . . . . .. with faraway eyes?
Who dribbles his food .. . ... . . and makes no reply.
When you say in a loud voice . .'I do wish you'd try!'
Who seems not to notice . . .the things that you do.
And forever is losing . . . . . .. . . A sock or shoe?
Who, resisting or not . . . ... lets you do as you will,
With bathing and feeding . . . .The long day to fill?
Is that what you're thinking?. .Is that what you see?
Then open your eyes, nurse .you're not looking at me.
I'll tell you who I am . . . . .. As I sit here so still,
As I do at your bidding, .. . . . as I eat at your will.
I'm a small child of Ten . .with a father and mother,
Brothers and sisters .. . . .. . who love one another
A young boy of Sixteen . . . .. with wings on his feet
Dreaming that soon now . . .. . . a lover he'll meet.
A groom soon at Twenty . . . ..my heart gives a leap.
Remembering, the vows .. .. .that I promised to keep.
At Twenty-Five, now . . . . .I have young of my own.
Who need me to guide . . . And a secure happy home.
A man of Thirty . .. . . . . My young now grown fast,
Bound to each other . . .. With ties that should last.
At Forty, my young sons .. .have grown and are gone,
But my woman is beside me . . to see I don't mourn.
At Fifty, once more, .. ...Babies play 'round my knee,
Again, we know children . . . . My loved one and me.
Dark days are upon me . . . . My wife is now dead.
I look at the future ... . . . . I shudder with dread.
For my young are all rearing .. . . young of their own.
And I think of the years . . . And the love that I've known.
I'm now an old man . . . . . . .. and nature is cruel.
It's jest to make old age . . . . . . . look like a fool.
The body, it crumbles .. .. . grace and vigour, depart.
There is now a stone . . . where I once had a heart.
But inside this old carcass . A young man still dwells,
And now and again . . . . . my battered heart swells
I remember the joys . . . . .. . I remember the pain.
And I'm loving and living . . . . . . . life over again.
I think of the years, all too few . . .. gone too fast.
And accept the stark fact . . . that nothing can last.
So open your eyes, people .. . . . .. . . open and see.
Not a cranky old man .
Look closer . . . . see .. .. . .. .... . ME!!
Remember this poem when you next meet an older person who you might brush aside without looking at the young soul within. We will all, one day, be there, too!
PLEASE SHARE THIS POEM (originally written by Dave Griffith)
The best and most beautiful things of this world can't be seen or touched. They must be felt by the heart!
Very Respectfully,
Scott Sonnon
www.breathinggift.com (My free book and video gift to you.)
— at Where was this photo taken?
Kid Logic...
Setting: July 21, 2012; Mother in kitchen getting some PC work done; appreciating her quiet morning and strong coffee....
Insert sound of footsteps....
Child: "Mom, you should make me breakfast today..."
Mother: "Hmm...why?"
Child: "Because I made you breakfast for you on my birthday 2 weeks ago..."
Mother: "Well, I carried you for 9 months rent free and am on my menstrual cycle..."
Child: "Really mom? What is it with you and your ovaries and for those 9 months you didn't have to deal with that bicycle, tricycle thing."
Mother: "Pancakes ok?" smh...
Insert sound of footsteps....
Child: "Mom, you should make me breakfast today..."
Mother: "Hmm...why?"
Child: "Because I made you breakfast for you on my birthday 2 weeks ago..."
Mother: "Well, I carried you for 9 months rent free and am on my menstrual cycle..."
Child: "Really mom? What is it with you and your ovaries and for those 9 months you didn't have to deal with that bicycle, tricycle thing."
Mother: "Pancakes ok?" smh...
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
What the hell type of person....
or organization pickets a funeral?
Don't get me wrong...there are certain types of people that should be burned at the stake but I can't understand what the concept of the following quote taken from the Huff Post Entertainment section:
The world has no short supply of idiots - and apparently some attend the Westboro Baptist Church.
Church to picket Sage Stallone's death
Don't get me wrong...there are certain types of people that should be burned at the stake but I can't understand what the concept of the following quote taken from the Huff Post Entertainment section:
"The Westboro Baptist Church, infamous for its organized pickets at military funeralsas part of its anti-gay agenda, is apparently targeting Sage because of his father's previous relationships.
"Adulterous dad brought wrath of God on son. #BloodOnDadsHands #picketfuneral #woe," Phelps tweeted, adding, "Tell @TheSlyStallone to mourn for his sins, not pimp out son's dead body to more proud sin!""
The world has no short supply of idiots - and apparently some attend the Westboro Baptist Church.
Church to picket Sage Stallone's death
Monday, July 16, 2012
Kindly explain....
How you feel you are entitled to anything from me (be it a meal, an explanation or a roll of toilet paper) when you give nothing in return? When I say nothing I mean - zero dollars, zero assistance, zero anything - except bitching about what you think I should be doing and how I should be doing it....
If I love you or think highly of you I will give you courtesy (by choice)...other than that you aren't entitled to a damn thing. I answer to myself, the God of my understanding and the laws of the USA. You may want to consider that the next time you question me, my choices or my actions.
Just saying.
If I love you or think highly of you I will give you courtesy (by choice)...other than that you aren't entitled to a damn thing. I answer to myself, the God of my understanding and the laws of the USA. You may want to consider that the next time you question me, my choices or my actions.
Just saying.
Thursday, July 12, 2012
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
I am a...
Thinker...Now this can be both a positive (although I have yet to have a concrete example of this) and a negative. Being a thinker means I think about every action, choice, decision or plan I make - being a thinker should not be confused with being intelligent (although I am not completely dence). When I say I think about everything I mean I pick it apart to its smallest possible molecule; analyze effect and consequence.
Example: Who will this decision effect? How will this decision make a particular person feel? What will people say? What will people do? Will I be abandoned by people I care about because I made this choice? Am I making this choice for myself or based on how someone else will feel?
I have discovered over the years is that this doesn't really serve a purpose for me and find it ironic that many of the people whose thoughts and feelings I consider do not contribute to my life as a whole.
There is a saying that analyzing is paralyzing and I tend to agree because often I am just unable to come to a clear conclusion or decision. I am afflicted by this character defect called caring too damn much what others think. I often wish I can just throw caution to the wind (and on a rare occasion I may) but mostly I think.
I feel emotions to my very core - as deeply as they can go whether it is happiness, anger, insecurity, hurt, sadness or any other numerous feelings. I realize that this is why I think. If I don't think I will feel and I can't under any circumstance allow my feelings to dictate my actions without some thought. I am extremely empathetic and often consider the feelings of others to a fault.
I am a thinker; a work in progress and I am ok with that.
Example: Who will this decision effect? How will this decision make a particular person feel? What will people say? What will people do? Will I be abandoned by people I care about because I made this choice? Am I making this choice for myself or based on how someone else will feel?
I have discovered over the years is that this doesn't really serve a purpose for me and find it ironic that many of the people whose thoughts and feelings I consider do not contribute to my life as a whole.
There is a saying that analyzing is paralyzing and I tend to agree because often I am just unable to come to a clear conclusion or decision. I am afflicted by this character defect called caring too damn much what others think. I often wish I can just throw caution to the wind (and on a rare occasion I may) but mostly I think.
I feel emotions to my very core - as deeply as they can go whether it is happiness, anger, insecurity, hurt, sadness or any other numerous feelings. I realize that this is why I think. If I don't think I will feel and I can't under any circumstance allow my feelings to dictate my actions without some thought. I am extremely empathetic and often consider the feelings of others to a fault.
I am a thinker; a work in progress and I am ok with that.
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Are you busy on Saturday?...
Well I tell you that all depends. To me this is a set up of the worst kind because you are curious as to what the person is going to say but your gut knows that it will be one of those favor requests. I have never had a:
"Are you busy on Saturday because I have orchestra seats to the Lion King on Broadway and thought you would like to go."
what usually occurs is:
"I was wondering if you can take me to the airport?" or "Would you be able to watch all 6 of my kids while I go get a pedicure?"
The point is the question should be rephrased to:
"Do you think on Saturday you can blah, blah, blah?" or "If you are available on Saturday could you blah, blah, blah?" this way if I don't want to do it I am not cornered because you already know I am free.
It is a set up. That is why nowadays everyone answers "Why?" before they are willing to let you know what their plans are.
"Are you busy on Saturday because I have orchestra seats to the Lion King on Broadway and thought you would like to go."
what usually occurs is:
"I was wondering if you can take me to the airport?" or "Would you be able to watch all 6 of my kids while I go get a pedicure?"
The point is the question should be rephrased to:
"Do you think on Saturday you can blah, blah, blah?" or "If you are available on Saturday could you blah, blah, blah?" this way if I don't want to do it I am not cornered because you already know I am free.
It is a set up. That is why nowadays everyone answers "Why?" before they are willing to let you know what their plans are.
Monday, June 25, 2012
It's your turn....
I don't know what I find more entertaining: my kids arguing over whose is going to the store or their reasoning...
"I went yesterday."
"I emptied the dishwasher."
"Your the one who drinks more soda."
"I graduated last Wednesday."
"I helped mommy with the floor."
"I will do your laundry when I take mine down later."
"Deal."
"I went yesterday."
"I emptied the dishwasher."
"Your the one who drinks more soda."
"I graduated last Wednesday."
"I helped mommy with the floor."
"I will do your laundry when I take mine down later."
"Deal."
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Grow up...
"Grow up!" I love when people say that. I guess the fact that I have two kids, was in a 20 marriage, have worked in the same place for 13 yrs and 9 yrs the place before that. Have tried my best to play an active role in my children's schools and in my community. Pay my bills as regularly as possible and don't ask you for a damn thing means I am immature. Funny that. Just because I have:
a sarcastic tendency;
laugh at things that I shouldn't find funny but do;
and come out my ass with you (the very epitome of maturity and responsibility) when you start throwing bullshit.
Amazing that you even think for a second that you are and authority on any growth let alone my growth. Interesting way you have of looking at things - then again you away did.
a sarcastic tendency;
laugh at things that I shouldn't find funny but do;
and come out my ass with you (the very epitome of maturity and responsibility) when you start throwing bullshit.
Amazing that you even think for a second that you are and authority on any growth let alone my growth. Interesting way you have of looking at things - then again you away did.
Friday, June 15, 2012
He just called...
[phone ringing]....
"Mr. So & So's Office;"
"It's [insert name];"
"uh huh...;"
"He just called me...;"
"Ok, he is on the other line can he call you back?"
"He JUST called me...;"
"uh huh...would you like me to go to his office and let him know you are on?"
"Yes please because he just called me."
***
Ok
1st off this was a personal call.
2nd is that I am pretty sure it wasn't urgent.
3rd I heard you the first time when you said he just called you.
If only I could reply:
"Yes, So & So, I heard you the 1st 2 times you said he just called you - did you hear the part when I said he is on the phone and can he call you back? If it is urgent you might want to express that and if it was urgent on his behalf he would have picked up when he saw your number come up on his phone." Pendejo.
"Mr. So & So's Office;"
"It's [insert name];"
"uh huh...;"
"He just called me...;"
"Ok, he is on the other line can he call you back?"
"He JUST called me...;"
"uh huh...would you like me to go to his office and let him know you are on?"
"Yes please because he just called me."
***
Ok
1st off this was a personal call.
2nd is that I am pretty sure it wasn't urgent.
3rd I heard you the first time when you said he just called you.
If only I could reply:
"Yes, So & So, I heard you the 1st 2 times you said he just called you - did you hear the part when I said he is on the phone and can he call you back? If it is urgent you might want to express that and if it was urgent on his behalf he would have picked up when he saw your number come up on his phone." Pendejo.
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Knowledge and experience...
I don't claim to ever be a genius (and if I did you would soon realize that it was a false claim). I know what I know based on what I remember from public school and life experiences. I am just a regular person who gets up and lives life to the best of my ability. I try to improve the parts of myself I feel need change. I try to keep an open mind. Please note the word TRY. I don't always succeed and I accept that. I make a decent living but poor choices, mistakes and lessons have prevented me from moving ahead at the speed I would like - but I accept accountability in these decisions. At the end of the day I can look in the mirror and know that I am truly a decent human being who uses too much profanity, owes too much money, is blessed with an abundance of wonderful friends, family and 2 amazing kids.
I attended a Meet and Greet yesterday for an upcoming Board Election for my building and left with this horrible sense of powerlessness in my voice. It is actually frightening to see how many different visions of life and reality people have. This is not to say the my vision is right and correct - just that it is different and based on my reality.
Someone mentioned a comment one of the Board Members made regarding maintenance increases...please know that this is hearsay, I wasn't there to confirm but the gist of the statement seemed to be: Do you know what I paid for my apartment? If people can't afford to live here they should leave.
This was extremely disturbing to me as: 1. I live there; 2. I struggle with my finances; 3. I like where I live; 4. I belong here - this is MY home.
I live in the Lower East Side of New York. Have all my life. MY grandfather worked maintenance in the buildings I live in. I made my Holy Communion in St. Mary's where my parents married and my children Baptized. I went to all the "zoned" schools because back then there wasn't a choice. This neighborhood use to be so full of diversity and culture. Like most areas it is changing. Gone are the stores that offered Cuchifritos; a slice & soda; or knish - that you could also buy "Skippys" (think bootleg Keds).
The days when your neighbor Lily owned the liquor store and Tony the shoe repair. How much longer before they remove Zafi's diner that has existed since I was in kindergarten? Still can't beat their Lime-Rickey.
I Googled the Board Member who had apparently made the comment and came across and article in the New York Village Voice. Here is a blurb I copied with remarks made from him and his partner.
"The older community has more wealth because they have the equity. [Jennifer] They don't seem to know it. [Michael] They're starting to grasp it. We make more money but they don't have the mortgage. The lady that had this apartment paid $3,400 30 years ago. She wore taps on her shoes. [ Jennifer] So her shoes would last longer. [Michael] She was Section 8. Here's this woman with all this equity in the apartment and our federal tax dollars were paying a significant portion of her maintenance. I almost think she should have to pay that back. I worked for a company that used to audit HUD. The closing was very bizarre. She now has a huge chunk of change that her children are salivating over. She has five kids. The neighbors were glad we moved in because at times she had 15 people in the apartment. We're young professionals who keep a clean apartment. When I came in, there were cockroaches all over. I called Jen. I was crying—maybe we made a mistake. We renovated. We spent about $50,000. Now this is a gem. I used only local people. I wanted to do everything to support the community. We put a French door in between the bedroom and the living room. We wanted to see the Empire State Building. We paid $425,000, which was under market. I think today this place would go for $600,000. She didn't use a real estate broker. I did all the research—I benefited. I don't understand her decision, but it was a good one for us."
I can only say this:
You don't know someone based on where they live or how they dress.
Do you think because I make less, live off of Section 8 that I haven't earned my keep in society; or because my home isn't as clean as yours I am undeserving to live on the same block or apartment floor you do? If I sold my apartment would my kids be salivating over the money or could they possibly be concerned to where we would be living the following week? I am always amazed on how long it takes to save $1000 as opposed to spending it. How far does a dollar go these days? What happens when I am too old to work and social security doesn't exist?
You don't know me. My reality and yours are very different and while you think you know all about the "type of person" I am you can't possibly because you have never cared to ask. Keep an open mind. You may one day find yourself looking back on some of the things you have said and realize you were far from accurate. Everyone has a story. We are a culture of flawed and vastly unique individuals. I can't balance a check book and don't cook every night but I have love in my heart for people, places and things that are near and dear to me. Your life experiences have put you where you are as mine have me. Maybe your life got a better hand or maybe you just knew how play it to your advantage but life is funny and often changes the rules of the game.
I attended a Meet and Greet yesterday for an upcoming Board Election for my building and left with this horrible sense of powerlessness in my voice. It is actually frightening to see how many different visions of life and reality people have. This is not to say the my vision is right and correct - just that it is different and based on my reality.
Someone mentioned a comment one of the Board Members made regarding maintenance increases...please know that this is hearsay, I wasn't there to confirm but the gist of the statement seemed to be: Do you know what I paid for my apartment? If people can't afford to live here they should leave.
This was extremely disturbing to me as: 1. I live there; 2. I struggle with my finances; 3. I like where I live; 4. I belong here - this is MY home.
I live in the Lower East Side of New York. Have all my life. MY grandfather worked maintenance in the buildings I live in. I made my Holy Communion in St. Mary's where my parents married and my children Baptized. I went to all the "zoned" schools because back then there wasn't a choice. This neighborhood use to be so full of diversity and culture. Like most areas it is changing. Gone are the stores that offered Cuchifritos; a slice & soda; or knish - that you could also buy "Skippys" (think bootleg Keds).
The days when your neighbor Lily owned the liquor store and Tony the shoe repair. How much longer before they remove Zafi's diner that has existed since I was in kindergarten? Still can't beat their Lime-Rickey.
I Googled the Board Member who had apparently made the comment and came across and article in the New York Village Voice. Here is a blurb I copied with remarks made from him and his partner.
"The older community has more wealth because they have the equity. [Jennifer] They don't seem to know it. [Michael] They're starting to grasp it. We make more money but they don't have the mortgage. The lady that had this apartment paid $3,400 30 years ago. She wore taps on her shoes. [ Jennifer] So her shoes would last longer. [Michael] She was Section 8. Here's this woman with all this equity in the apartment and our federal tax dollars were paying a significant portion of her maintenance. I almost think she should have to pay that back. I worked for a company that used to audit HUD. The closing was very bizarre. She now has a huge chunk of change that her children are salivating over. She has five kids. The neighbors were glad we moved in because at times she had 15 people in the apartment. We're young professionals who keep a clean apartment. When I came in, there were cockroaches all over. I called Jen. I was crying—maybe we made a mistake. We renovated. We spent about $50,000. Now this is a gem. I used only local people. I wanted to do everything to support the community. We put a French door in between the bedroom and the living room. We wanted to see the Empire State Building. We paid $425,000, which was under market. I think today this place would go for $600,000. She didn't use a real estate broker. I did all the research—I benefited. I don't understand her decision, but it was a good one for us."
I can only say this:
You don't know someone based on where they live or how they dress.
Do you think because I make less, live off of Section 8 that I haven't earned my keep in society; or because my home isn't as clean as yours I am undeserving to live on the same block or apartment floor you do? If I sold my apartment would my kids be salivating over the money or could they possibly be concerned to where we would be living the following week? I am always amazed on how long it takes to save $1000 as opposed to spending it. How far does a dollar go these days? What happens when I am too old to work and social security doesn't exist?
You don't know me. My reality and yours are very different and while you think you know all about the "type of person" I am you can't possibly because you have never cared to ask. Keep an open mind. You may one day find yourself looking back on some of the things you have said and realize you were far from accurate. Everyone has a story. We are a culture of flawed and vastly unique individuals. I can't balance a check book and don't cook every night but I have love in my heart for people, places and things that are near and dear to me. Your life experiences have put you where you are as mine have me. Maybe your life got a better hand or maybe you just knew how play it to your advantage but life is funny and often changes the rules of the game.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
You are a friggin idiot...
Idiot Pastor.
No God of my understanding would take the stance taken by this moron. I think the Lord himself is shaking his head.
No God of my understanding would take the stance taken by this moron. I think the Lord himself is shaking his head.
Beat the bully...
Do I sound angry? Hell yeah I am! What the fuck is up with guardians/parents not addressing their kids who are being bullies (worse if the parents are bullies also). Let me find out my kid is being a bully and laws be damn because my child is getting an ass whipping.
What kind of a person picks on someone weaker? I believe there is a term for that called a p#*sy. Children need to be taught (and for that matter so do some ignorant ass adults) to treat each other with respect and courtesy. In case you haven't heard life is short. God put us on this earth and I doubt his intent was to have everyone harming each other be it emotionally, physically or verbally.
Note to the little witch kicking my nephew down the slide in the playground while the other little girls taunted – tell mommy I will be there next time. I am supposed to tell my nephew not to hit girls when I want to slap a bitch myself. Just ignore them – fuck no. My sister was trying to address the girls nicely – can you please stop kicking him!! Oh lawd – then when Madea come out we all uncivilized and shit. I am not trying to have someone yell at my kids but if my kids are doing wrong and I am not around then do you because that is how they learn – note that I said "yell" not touch and "if I am not around" – meaning at one point someone should be yelling "whose kid is this?" (and I mean YELLING because I am hearing impaired).
Breath……ok sorry I had to get that out of my system. I get heated every time I think of my braveheart getting picked on. Make no mistake - if it were his younger brother on the slide them girls wouldn't even have known how to handle his reaction and 2 of us would have had to hold back that 5 year old.
What kind of a person picks on someone weaker? I believe there is a term for that called a p#*sy. Children need to be taught (and for that matter so do some ignorant ass adults) to treat each other with respect and courtesy. In case you haven't heard life is short. God put us on this earth and I doubt his intent was to have everyone harming each other be it emotionally, physically or verbally.
Note to the little witch kicking my nephew down the slide in the playground while the other little girls taunted – tell mommy I will be there next time. I am supposed to tell my nephew not to hit girls when I want to slap a bitch myself. Just ignore them – fuck no. My sister was trying to address the girls nicely – can you please stop kicking him!! Oh lawd – then when Madea come out we all uncivilized and shit. I am not trying to have someone yell at my kids but if my kids are doing wrong and I am not around then do you because that is how they learn – note that I said "yell" not touch and "if I am not around" – meaning at one point someone should be yelling "whose kid is this?" (and I mean YELLING because I am hearing impaired).
Breath……ok sorry I had to get that out of my system. I get heated every time I think of my braveheart getting picked on. Make no mistake - if it were his younger brother on the slide them girls wouldn't even have known how to handle his reaction and 2 of us would have had to hold back that 5 year old.
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Wondering...
I often wonder what in someone's life causes them to act superior – and make no mistake because it is acting. You may have a degree in law, philosophy, a license to practice medicine, or have invented the next best thing to the crapper - but at the end of the day you are a mammal. While you may know more about certain things someone else may excel in another topic or profession.
You can have a mansion but will one day be at the mercy of an electrician or plumber; or even as brilliant as you are you will some day have to ask the stock person what aisle the olives are in.
Based on today's news events it is being said that the Zombie Apocalypse is here. Do you think those Zombies are going to give a shit that you make 7 figures and have an Island in the Caymans. That person you stepped on – on your upward climb may be the very person with the weaponry to save your ass.
In other words – don't be an asshole your whole life. Pick and choose your battles, make sure they are worth the fight and don't ever think you are so much greater than anyone that you have a right to belittle or berate them.
You can have a mansion but will one day be at the mercy of an electrician or plumber; or even as brilliant as you are you will some day have to ask the stock person what aisle the olives are in.
Based on today's news events it is being said that the Zombie Apocalypse is here. Do you think those Zombies are going to give a shit that you make 7 figures and have an Island in the Caymans. That person you stepped on – on your upward climb may be the very person with the weaponry to save your ass.
In other words – don't be an asshole your whole life. Pick and choose your battles, make sure they are worth the fight and don't ever think you are so much greater than anyone that you have a right to belittle or berate them.
Thursday, May 17, 2012
The world of online dating...
A while back I decided to try online dating. It is a good experience if you are trying to get yourself back out there. I met some fairly normal people like myself and some from planet Hell No but I didn't realize it would be such a filtering process - people lie. They put pictures of of themselves when they were 10 years younger and 60 lbs lighter. Don't get me wrong, I don't have a problem dating an older heavy guy but at least give me a heads up. Don't have me looking for William Levy when your ass is Dennis Franz (who I find to be an attractive man with a whole lot of swagger). Point is Dennis wouldn't put a pic of himself when he was 45 if he is in fact 60.
If you have a lazy eye, peg leg or tourette let a sista know. Same applies to the ladies but I will leave that mess for someone else to take on.
I am, for the most part, a very honest person. I also don't have time to waste on nonsense so after taking some time to work on my profile this was the end result.
"Primarily, I am a mom, daughter, sister and friend. I value those roles and while I strive to be the best in all of them I try not to take them too seriously.
I have a sarcastic, quick wit and often laugh at things I shouldn't.
I make every effort to be a person of my word. I am a work in progress.
I, like many others, prefer honesty in any relationship. Be straight, be real but don't be an idiot when doing it.
I am a Mets fan. Doesn't matter how bad the season - it goes with this horrible loyalty trait I have in me. I have nothing against Yankee fans, I'm just not one of them.
I am not for you if:
You want athletic & toned
You are a stickler for etiquette (while I know how to drink out of a glass and control most bodily functions upper class lady I am not)
You want or think you want kids (I have 2 I can barely tolerate)
You want a domestic Goddess
You are deeply religious, I have people praying for my soul this very moment."
You be surprised at how people set their standards because I had no shortage of emails. As I said earlier - it was a good experience but for now I choose to remain single.
If you have a lazy eye, peg leg or tourette let a sista know. Same applies to the ladies but I will leave that mess for someone else to take on.
I am, for the most part, a very honest person. I also don't have time to waste on nonsense so after taking some time to work on my profile this was the end result.
"Primarily, I am a mom, daughter, sister and friend. I value those roles and while I strive to be the best in all of them I try not to take them too seriously.
I have a sarcastic, quick wit and often laugh at things I shouldn't.
I make every effort to be a person of my word. I am a work in progress.
I, like many others, prefer honesty in any relationship. Be straight, be real but don't be an idiot when doing it.
I am a Mets fan. Doesn't matter how bad the season - it goes with this horrible loyalty trait I have in me. I have nothing against Yankee fans, I'm just not one of them.
I am not for you if:
You want athletic & toned
You are a stickler for etiquette (while I know how to drink out of a glass and control most bodily functions upper class lady I am not)
You want or think you want kids (I have 2 I can barely tolerate)
You want a domestic Goddess
You are deeply religious, I have people praying for my soul this very moment."
You be surprised at how people set their standards because I had no shortage of emails. As I said earlier - it was a good experience but for now I choose to remain single.
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Ish in The Lo-Down...
Local Writer Sissy Silva on Things That Make You Shake Your Head, Curse Like a Sailor & Give the Finger
Saturday, May 12, 2012
A work in progress..
There was a time in my life that I hated being alone. I wouldn't go retail shopping without someone coming with me. Sitting in a restaurant alone was not happening. I would put the tv on as soon as I walked in my door from work because I couldn't stand the silence.
Years later - I am so glad I don't loathe myself anymore and am almost 100% comfortable in my own skin. I say almost because I am still a work in progress - we all are. That is what it was. I didn't want to be alone with my thoughts or feelings.
I was much more comfortable be controlled by words like:
You shouldn't be feeling this way.
You are too sensitive.
You don't need that - you just have to....
Every action I took was based on the voices of those closest to me. The voice in my own head was weak and pathetic.
I have grown to be someone who not only doesn't care if she is alone but actually values her alone time. I rarely turn on the tv. I can sit in a restaurant with a book or journal and observe what is around me. I love shopping alone - while it is good to have someone there to challenge and push you a little further out of your comfort zone - it has taught me to trust my own opinion.
I am now in the process of making my voice stronger. I have always been so easily swayed - a flag blowing in the wind - going wherever the stronger force is pushing. It is actually really difficult to draw a line in the sand and not keep letting the tide push you back (I am kind of impressed with my metaphors) but it is essential. Trust yourself, your feelings, your thoughts (unless you are psychotic) and your instincts. Listen to the voices of those around you and take all that is good, loving and positive - it will give your own voice courage and strength.
Years later - I am so glad I don't loathe myself anymore and am almost 100% comfortable in my own skin. I say almost because I am still a work in progress - we all are. That is what it was. I didn't want to be alone with my thoughts or feelings.
I was much more comfortable be controlled by words like:
You shouldn't be feeling this way.
You are too sensitive.
You don't need that - you just have to....
Every action I took was based on the voices of those closest to me. The voice in my own head was weak and pathetic.
I am now in the process of making my voice stronger. I have always been so easily swayed - a flag blowing in the wind - going wherever the stronger force is pushing. It is actually really difficult to draw a line in the sand and not keep letting the tide push you back (I am kind of impressed with my metaphors) but it is essential. Trust yourself, your feelings, your thoughts (unless you are psychotic) and your instincts. Listen to the voices of those around you and take all that is good, loving and positive - it will give your own voice courage and strength.
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Back Dr...
I was at the chiropractor today. My back has been really acting up. Anyway he says "put your arms like this - I am going to push down to your ribs." I said "good luck with that because I haven't seen them since I was like 7."
Monday, May 7, 2012
Word.
Don't give your word lightly - and when you do give it with truth and meaning behind it. It is one of the few things you own in its entirety.
You can have all the money and fame in the world but if you aren't someone who keeps your word then you have no worth. Don't say you are going to do something and then not follow through and don't say you did something if you didn't (I find both of these especially irritating).
What a great feeling you get when your friends and family can trust that you are going to show up for them when you say you will because that has been your past practice and you are a person who places value on your word.
This is not to say that Ish doesn't happen that sometimes gets in the way of you following through - but don't have a bag of excuses or be one of those people that always has a story as to why you let someone down. After a while those people stop listening to those excuses and you are the only one who thinks anyone actually believes them.
You can have all the money and fame in the world but if you aren't someone who keeps your word then you have no worth. Don't say you are going to do something and then not follow through and don't say you did something if you didn't (I find both of these especially irritating).
What a great feeling you get when your friends and family can trust that you are going to show up for them when you say you will because that has been your past practice and you are a person who places value on your word.
This is not to say that Ish doesn't happen that sometimes gets in the way of you following through - but don't have a bag of excuses or be one of those people that always has a story as to why you let someone down. After a while those people stop listening to those excuses and you are the only one who thinks anyone actually believes them.
Friday, April 27, 2012
Close to my heart.
This is a story so very close to my heart. I remember getting emails from Theresa and thinking "how is she managing to keep her faith" as I teared up at my desk thinking how unfair this was to my cousin and her son. I can't imagine on having to stand and watch any child suffer let alone my own and not be able to do anything but hold him and offer soft words and hugs. I know times are tough and everyone is going through their own struggles so any contribution made will be that much more appreciated. ♥
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Did you tell him I called?
So here is the thing…if I make a mistake - say for example I forget to tell my boss you called…then that is what it is - a mistake, an oversight or error. I honestly don't need you to waste your time sending me an email reminding me how important it is that my boss gets all your messages.
1st – You aren't even a client.
2nd – You call him like 20 times a day to the point that I am starting to wonder if you are his bitch.3rd – Important is notifying someone that the replacement kidney they have been waiting for has been found – Not that your bitch ass wants to know what bar you are going to meet in.
I mean REALLY! You're sending me an email asking if I told him you called 2x yesterday? No I didn't and I apologize. Leave it at that and keep it moving. How ironic that you name rhymes with dick.
You can see from the replies that this incident did not happen to me.
The names have been blocked out to protect the innocent – A.H. stands for A** Hole.Friday, April 20, 2012
Owning your Ish!
The other day I saw someone with a big ole cheesy grin, unfortunately the only teeth he had were his K9s. I looked at a co-worker and he said "well at least he is owning it!"
Yes, he damn sure was, with that said if you have imperfection or flaws (as we all do) and you want to show them to the world then OWN IT! If someone doesn't like it then tell them to stop looking at you.
However, I am not one of those people. You are not going to see me in 2 piece bathing suit (you can thank me later) or running in the street naked (unless my house went up in flames while I was in the shower at which point I would grab my cat as I was running out and start ripping off his fur and patching it on myself).
If you know your feet are jacked and want to wear sandals - go for it but have a damn care please.
Put some cocoa butter, shea butter, shit use Breakstone butter if you have to but there is no reason you should be out and about with heels so cracked that you leaving a trail of dust.
Yes, he damn sure was, with that said if you have imperfection or flaws (as we all do) and you want to show them to the world then OWN IT! If someone doesn't like it then tell them to stop looking at you.
However, I am not one of those people. You are not going to see me in 2 piece bathing suit (you can thank me later) or running in the street naked (unless my house went up in flames while I was in the shower at which point I would grab my cat as I was running out and start ripping off his fur and patching it on myself).
If you know your feet are jacked and want to wear sandals - go for it but have a damn care please.
Put some cocoa butter, shea butter, shit use Breakstone butter if you have to but there is no reason you should be out and about with heels so cracked that you leaving a trail of dust.
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Monday, April 9, 2012
Sunday, April 8, 2012
FYI
If you got something for FREE and give it to your significant other it isn't a GIFT. It is a "here they gave me this and I thought you would like it since I can't use it." (Cause you know damn well if it were a flat screen or iPad you would be keeping it)
It is also very nice of you to buy your significant other that item they wanted that cost $20 - however, you saying during a disagreement "I just spent $20 on that [insert item] for you" will not work to your advantage and may very likely lead that item flying and cracking you on the side of your head (for your sake I hope it wasn't a large mug).
It is also very nice of you to buy your significant other that item they wanted that cost $20 - however, you saying during a disagreement "I just spent $20 on that [insert item] for you" will not work to your advantage and may very likely lead that item flying and cracking you on the side of your head (for your sake I hope it wasn't a large mug).
"Are you....
going to be mean today?"
What I said: "I will try my best not to be."
What I wanted to say: "I don't know are you going to be an A-hole and piss me the F off?"
It is hard being me.
What I said: "I will try my best not to be."
What I wanted to say: "I don't know are you going to be an A-hole and piss me the F off?"
It is hard being me.
Friday, April 6, 2012
Awkward Moments
That awkward moment when you are trying to refasten your size 10 pants on your size 12 ass, the button pops off, hits the ground running and rolls over to the next occupied stall.
FYI: the proper reaction to this would be to quietly and gently slide the button back over with your foot NOT to pick it up, stick your hand under the stall wall and say did you lose this?
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
He is really nice....
you just have to get to know him (or her).
Here is the thing...if I have to put that much effort into getting to know you in order for me to not consider you a jerk - well that is just too much of my time. If I get to know you gradually because of our working or family connection and I come to see in time that you aren't really an ass then ok - I can accept that and even say "gee, I was wrong about so and so" but in no way am I going above and beyond getting to know you and giving you the benefit of the doubt because someone I know says "he is really nice - you just have to get to know him" - no thanks I would rather spend time with people I like on a natural level.
Here is the thing...if I have to put that much effort into getting to know you in order for me to not consider you a jerk - well that is just too much of my time. If I get to know you gradually because of our working or family connection and I come to see in time that you aren't really an ass then ok - I can accept that and even say "gee, I was wrong about so and so" but in no way am I going above and beyond getting to know you and giving you the benefit of the doubt because someone I know says "he is really nice - you just have to get to know him" - no thanks I would rather spend time with people I like on a natural level.
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Watch out for trick words...
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| Exhibit A |
I am trying to eat healthier so I am attempting to eat more veggies and fruit and less bread, pasta or rice (unless it is brown rice or that bread made of nothing but that crushed organic shit). Anyway, I just got my lunch and went with some kind of red meat and sautéed string beans that looked really pretty good (see Exhibit A). I assumed the word saute meant that the string beans would have a some kind of garlic, buttery or lemon zest flavor. This was not the case. These beans were "sautéed" in tasteless liquid and therefore should have just be called straight from the dirt string beans. Don't get it twisted - I ate them because - well because I was hungry - but I didn't enjoy them.
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Are you serious?
I tend to say this frequently, often in really dumb moments but for some reason I am more annoyed when other people say it to me.
Case in point. I am hearing impaired - which means my hearing is impaired. So when you are talking to me the conversation may go something like this...
Child: "Ma - mumble, mumble, mumble."
Me: "What?"
Child: "mumble, mumble, mumble."
Me: [moving closer] "Huh?"
Child: [very loudly while sucking his teeth] "Are you serious?"
Me: "Why the fuck wouldn't I be serious? You think I have nothing better to do than stand here and say what and huh? Speak the fuck up."
another example of this would be:
Me: "Did you hear so and so passed away?"
Person: "Are you serious?"
Me: [blank stare..]
There are just times that "Are you serious?" doesn't fit - and again I am guilty as well, with that said, here are some other responses you may consider using (and by all means add some in if you have any):
O*M*G (I think this is the one child above should have considered.)
You shitting me?
Please, don't tell me that.
Damn, that is messed up.
Oh No!
No way!
How?
Really?
Case in point. I am hearing impaired - which means my hearing is impaired. So when you are talking to me the conversation may go something like this...
Child: "Ma - mumble, mumble, mumble."
Me: "What?"
Child: "mumble, mumble, mumble."
Me: [moving closer] "Huh?"
Child: [very loudly while sucking his teeth] "Are you serious?"
Me: "Why the fuck wouldn't I be serious? You think I have nothing better to do than stand here and say what and huh? Speak the fuck up."
another example of this would be:
Me: "Did you hear so and so passed away?"
Person: "Are you serious?"
Me: [blank stare..]
There are just times that "Are you serious?" doesn't fit - and again I am guilty as well, with that said, here are some other responses you may consider using (and by all means add some in if you have any):
O*M*G (I think this is the one child above should have considered.)
You shitting me?
Please, don't tell me that.
Damn, that is messed up.
Oh No!
No way!
How?
Really?
Friday, March 23, 2012
Do you!
One of my biggest issues is taking care of me. I always worry more about how the other person that I care about is going to feel if I set a boundary or just feel like doing me. The funny thing is - those people don't have the same issue and then when they do them you are thinking to yourself "I am an idiot."
The bottom line is you have to live for you. If you don't feel like going somewhere or doing something say it. If you don't feel like inviting certain people to a particular event then don't (weddings should probably be excluded). It is important to be kind and considerate of others but that doesn't mean you should alter your own wants and actions because how it is going to make them feel. Their feelings belong to them and are theirs to deal with.
Let's practice: "It isn't that I don't love you I just don't want to see you mug this weekend."
ok maybe that isn't the way to go....
How about: "I am sorry - I was planning on just doing me this weekend."
or "Hey hun, I just wanted to let you know that I made plans the week of Spring break to be with my girls."
There is nothing wrong with doing you. With that said, if I happen to mention that I am doing me at a particular time it isn't that I don't love you it is just that I want to do something else with someone else and well - you aren't invited.
The bottom line is you have to live for you. If you don't feel like going somewhere or doing something say it. If you don't feel like inviting certain people to a particular event then don't (weddings should probably be excluded). It is important to be kind and considerate of others but that doesn't mean you should alter your own wants and actions because how it is going to make them feel. Their feelings belong to them and are theirs to deal with.
Let's practice: "It isn't that I don't love you I just don't want to see you mug this weekend."
ok maybe that isn't the way to go....
How about: "I am sorry - I was planning on just doing me this weekend."
or "Hey hun, I just wanted to let you know that I made plans the week of Spring break to be with my girls."
There is nothing wrong with doing you. With that said, if I happen to mention that I am doing me at a particular time it isn't that I don't love you it is just that I want to do something else with someone else and well - you aren't invited.
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
As you can see....
I started messing with my blog layout this morning - couldn't leave well enough alone. In any case - being that I actually do have a job that I need to get ready for this current layout will have to do for now but I am still working on it. By all means please feel free to give me some design pointers.
Monday, March 19, 2012
Works well under pressure...
I think I should change the part of my resume that says "works well under pressure" to "will get the job done under pressure but will have anxiety while doing it."
Sunday, March 18, 2012
He said....She said
He: "This house needs to be cleaned."
She: "I'm waiting for you to leave."
He: "I just got in."
She: "I meant permanently."
He: "I love you."
She: "I love you too. Can you do the dishes?"
He: "I actually meant I really like you."
He: "I am not ready to commit."
She: "Then why are you still in my bed? Get the fuck out - and next time bring cash or jewelry."
He: "Do you know where the remote is?"
She: "Yup......"
He: "Well...."
She: "The dishes are still there."
She: "I can't understand why you like watching wrestling. It's so fake."
He: "It's entertaining."
[She looks toward flatscreen and sees Randy Orton in HIGH DEFINITION.]
She: "Sweet baby Jesus, I see what you mean - scoot over."
[In the club yelling over the music.]
He: "Baby you are so fine."
She: "I have 4 kids."
[Insert trail of smoke.]
Saturday, March 17, 2012
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Thursday, March 15, 2012
I don't call the shots...
I obviously don't call the shots in this crazy world but from a bystander point of view I can't help but want to scream "That's not fair!"
Now my ex and I had a conversation the other day and I told him you know "that isn't fair" and this pendejo responded with "Well Sis, life isn't fair."
Yeah you know what? It isn't. There are people who go through too much struggle and pain. There are people who have to bury their children. There are amazing individuals who have passed on before there time (again not my call but my point of view) and then there are the others....
What do I mean by others?
The ones who don't do shit with there lives but contemplate how to get over on others. The lazy, schemers, greedy and selfish. The ones who are malicious and bitter (maybe I shouldn't add bitter to this mix or narrow it down to so bitter it becomes evil). The ones who have abused their minds and bodies with every substance under the sun and still manage to have another breath each morning. The ones who cause physical, emotional and mental anguish on those that are weaker (or believe they are weaker).
I so wish - and will continue to pray to the God of my understanding - for the unwavering faith I see in many going through deep emotional, mental and physical pain. It is humbling how these people don't ever question their God and trust in absolutely everything he chooses for them - I am so far from that. I hope to keep adding a bit of oxygen to the little spark of hope I have in me that it will someday grow larger and stronger.
I heard yesterday that a woman in her late 30s passed away suddenly. She is from the area and we have some mutual friends. I didn't know her but she had 2 young children and I can't help but want to scream it again "That's not fair!" But again, I don't call the shots.
Make this day count people. Laugh at something, anything. Love something, anything. Just live and be thankful.
Now my ex and I had a conversation the other day and I told him you know "that isn't fair" and this pendejo responded with "Well Sis, life isn't fair."
Yeah you know what? It isn't. There are people who go through too much struggle and pain. There are people who have to bury their children. There are amazing individuals who have passed on before there time (again not my call but my point of view) and then there are the others....
What do I mean by others?
The ones who don't do shit with there lives but contemplate how to get over on others. The lazy, schemers, greedy and selfish. The ones who are malicious and bitter (maybe I shouldn't add bitter to this mix or narrow it down to so bitter it becomes evil). The ones who have abused their minds and bodies with every substance under the sun and still manage to have another breath each morning. The ones who cause physical, emotional and mental anguish on those that are weaker (or believe they are weaker).
I so wish - and will continue to pray to the God of my understanding - for the unwavering faith I see in many going through deep emotional, mental and physical pain. It is humbling how these people don't ever question their God and trust in absolutely everything he chooses for them - I am so far from that. I hope to keep adding a bit of oxygen to the little spark of hope I have in me that it will someday grow larger and stronger.
I heard yesterday that a woman in her late 30s passed away suddenly. She is from the area and we have some mutual friends. I didn't know her but she had 2 young children and I can't help but want to scream it again "That's not fair!" But again, I don't call the shots.
Make this day count people. Laugh at something, anything. Love something, anything. Just live and be thankful.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Metronome shoes
I absolutely appreciate hot beautiful shoes. Metronomeshoes.com is one of my favorite sites to browse through. Their shoes are affordable and stunning but I am not even going to front, I can't walk in them. Don't mistake not being able to walk in them for not being able to lean up against the wall or sit with my legs crossed looking sexy as all get out (while my Dr. Scholls foldable flats are in my wristlet) but I am not walking, commuting, evacuating during a state of emergency in them.Case in point. Yesterday there was a very nicely dressed young (toothpick thin) lady walking (and I am using this term loosely) in these FABULOUS shoes. No question about it these shoes were friggin gorgeous. Black leather platform pumps with leopard print soles, however each of her ankles was wobbling like they had minds of their own and she was using her man's arm for support. Did I mention his ass had on sneakers? Irrelevent fact: I think they were white Lacoste.
There are very few women who can really walk in these contraptions (Jessica Simpson - even while pregnant pulls this off). I am not sure if the makers actually intend for you to walk in them let alone trot up and down steps of the train station, jumping over puddles and potholes - unless you are doing a Sex in the City shoot.
I myself have walked into poles, slipped and tripped while in flats (I am sure some fucker will eventually catch me and will post it on youtube). I try to comfort myself by saying I can't pull this off because I am overweight and my poor toes are not meant to take all the pressure of this 160 lb body - ok FINE 185 lb body. Maybe that is indeed the case but girlfriend yesterday had to weigh about 90 lbs with 20 rolls of quarters on her and she was not pulling it off.
The point is - oh hell there is no point...if shoe makers brought the heels and platforms down a notch I don't know that they would be so hot but I really would like them to try.
Friday, March 9, 2012
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Faux....
Please enlighten me as to the point of the "faux" pocket and while I am on the subject explain the thought behind the pocket on pants that's barely large enough for a nickel (let alone your finger to get it out).
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Not snow:
Oh HELL NO. My ass would be moving the fuck out of Austrailia - I don't care how fine Hugh Jackman is.
Not snow: SPIDER WEBS blanket Australian countryside - NYPOST.com
Friday, March 2, 2012
It will be an interesting day..
At least that is what the ass crack of the hefty man in the train told me. Smh...
Thursday, March 1, 2012
How do you know?
That if you jump out of a high rise window you will die before you hit the ground! Personally I didn't think the jump killed you but the landing and if it is indeed the jump then how come skydivers land in one piece?
That no 2 snowflakes are alike - scientific or not how the hell can we say when there is still snow that has yet to fall from the sky.
That you were saved! Just wondering how good of a source did you get it from. Like the serial killers who were saved in prison...isn't the priest an inmate also and if not reallly how reliable are priests these days?
The proof is in the pudding. Who the fuck puts proof in pudding? I heard of 80 proof in Jello shots but not pudding.
That you are going to hell in a hand basket and that you will burn for eternity when you get there. I have been told this on several of an occasion. First off, my fat ass is not fitting in no hand basket, or any basket for that matter. Second, who took this trip because I have yet to see any pics of the Travelocity Gnome there.
I am not saying any of this isn't true, I am just asking how you know…
I know....
"I know"....really - do you? Because every time I
tell you to do shit you say you know and you still don't do it.
E.g.
Child:
"My phone is dead"
Me: "Ok - put it to charge"
Child:
"I know"
Next day:
Child: "I am going to school without my
phone because it is dead"
[long sigh]
Me: "PUT IT TO CHARGE"
Child: "I know"
I wonder how said child would feel if I said
I know I have to pay the internet bill and didn't.
Monday, February 27, 2012
The calm before the storm....
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Things I hate......
1. When you are wiping your ass and you get shit on your hand.
2. When you think your fart is going to be gas/air and it's not.
3. When you think your fart will be silent.
4. When your significant other says they are confused about their feelings for you.
5. When you need to shave those hard to reach places and you are overweight.
6. When you miss that little patch of hair when you do manage to get into those hard to reach places.
7. When you think you have a particular beverage in a cup and your taste buds are shocked because it is something different.
8. When the scale in the doctors office slaps the denial right out of you.
9. When you get home and try on the outfit that in your mind looked so good on you but you can't zipper past your defensive lineman back.
10. When you are in a public place and feel like there is a huge visible booger in your nose but don't have anywhere to check and don't want to make it worse if it is still in hiding.
2. When you think your fart is going to be gas/air and it's not.
3. When you think your fart will be silent.
4. When your significant other says they are confused about their feelings for you.
5. When you need to shave those hard to reach places and you are overweight.
6. When you miss that little patch of hair when you do manage to get into those hard to reach places.
7. When you think you have a particular beverage in a cup and your taste buds are shocked because it is something different.
8. When the scale in the doctors office slaps the denial right out of you.
9. When you get home and try on the outfit that in your mind looked so good on you but you can't zipper past your defensive lineman back.
10. When you are in a public place and feel like there is a huge visible booger in your nose but don't have anywhere to check and don't want to make it worse if it is still in hiding.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Special shout out to....
Mr. GQ Diva Shmuck on the train who was leaning on my hand the whole ride and then gave me the eye like I was inconveniencing him. May you get a boil between your ass cheeks that is not quite ready to pop.
Monday, February 20, 2012
Bastards at Nike....
In my own defense I do wear Air Max and I love them but I buy 1 pair to last me a year and a half - not a pair every week. SMH
Saturday, February 18, 2012
Some Nevers
They (Justin Bieber and whoever else "they" be) say never say never but I am pretty sure there are some nevers in my life...and possibly yours as well.
I will never...
1. Win the lotto (hoping I will be proved wrong on this but being that I don't play...)
2. Be a doctor (I don't want to touch strange people parts).
3. Enjoy cleaning.
4. Run barefoot over hot coal by choice.
5. Fly a plane (and if I do I am sure you are praying this very moment you aren't on it).
6. Understand why someone would have 20 kids and be considered mentally sane.
7. Jump out of a plane (while it is grounded and going down that yellow emergency slidy thing is excluded)...fall out maybe, be pushed - it can happen but believe that person or at least of wad of their hair is going down with me.
8. Be a size zero - while alive.
9. Scuba dive in the middle of the ocean - I have no sense of direction as it is.
10. Enjoy having food stuck in my teeth.
11. Wrestle a gator.
12. Respect bullies.
13. Give up trying to be a better person.
14. Do a back somersault (oh who am I kidding I won't do a front one either).
15. Appreciate arrogance or ignorance.
16. Not love my kids (not to be confused with the occasional not like).
17. Be 100% sure the correct spelling of occasion or separate without spellcheck.
18. Drive in Nascar (although I have pushed a shopping cart through Walmart on Black Friday).
19. understand why faux pockets exist.
20. understand why people continue to make excel spreadsheets longer than legal size paper in landscape mode.
Friday, February 17, 2012
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Some of my favorite words.....
Free;
50% off;
on sale;
outlet;
refurbished;
I got you a present (in that exact order);
Account settled;
Pay to the order of "my name";
Some of my least favorite words...
You owe..;
your balance due is..;
one size fits all...(who are they kidding);
convenience, processing, application, renewal, overdraft or any other word placed in front of "Fee" (not to be confused with free);
sold out...;
no longer available...;
please step on the scale...;
I now pronounce you man and wife.
50% off;
on sale;
outlet;
refurbished;
I got you a present (in that exact order);
Account settled;
Pay to the order of "my name";
Some of my least favorite words...
You owe..;
your balance due is..;
one size fits all...(who are they kidding);
convenience, processing, application, renewal, overdraft or any other word placed in front of "Fee" (not to be confused with free);
sold out...;
no longer available...;
please step on the scale...;
I now pronounce you man and wife.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
What is Valentine's Day?
I don't know about St. Valentine or anything like that. Valentine's day was probably a holiday concocted by the dental community, Russell Stover and Whittman's. Maybe they felt that Easter and Halloween didn't get people through the year and another chocolate fix was needed. Hah - upon doing this blog I discovered that Russell Stover and Whittman's are one of the same....I digress.
Valentine's Day is a day to show people you love them. Now most will say they do this on a daily basis but upon deeper thought I think Valentine's Day is a day to show people that you love deeply but don't like much (e.g. your spouse or kids) that you actually do care about them and would be devastated if they weren't around to constantly irritate you.
That said, Happy Valentine's Day to my 2 boys who I love deeply but only like occasionally.
Monday, February 13, 2012
Oh Nicki
Thursday, February 9, 2012
I told you so...
There are some phrases that really ruffle my feathers when they are told to me.
One of them is "I told you so." Did you now? And when you "told me so" did I tell you to shut the fuck up? What is the point of saying "I told you so" if not to say "if you would have listened to me this would not have happened." Now let me apologize to my children because I will slip on occasion and use this on them but since they don't read my blog they are none the wiser.
Some other phrases are:
"You always do that!" Do I really? Then you shouldn't be surprised and this is a pointless discussion - next subject.
"That's what you get." Yes, that is what I got and here is what you get {insert middle finger and death stare here}.
"You never....." This kind of goes with "you always" and as such is pointless but I find it extremely irritating since my life if far from over and there is still a chance that I still may do the thing you think I never did or do. Additionally, you aren't with me 24/7 so how the fuck you know what I never do.
"Why would you do that?" Obviously to irritate the shit out of you.
"What were you thinking?" Oh I don't know maybe I wasn't thinking and if I was maybe my thoughts centered around I won't get caught.
Condescending is what it is and you can keep it to yourself.
One of them is "I told you so." Did you now? And when you "told me so" did I tell you to shut the fuck up? What is the point of saying "I told you so" if not to say "if you would have listened to me this would not have happened." Now let me apologize to my children because I will slip on occasion and use this on them but since they don't read my blog they are none the wiser.
"You always do that!" Do I really? Then you shouldn't be surprised and this is a pointless discussion - next subject.
"That's what you get." Yes, that is what I got and here is what you get {insert middle finger and death stare here}.
"You never....." This kind of goes with "you always" and as such is pointless but I find it extremely irritating since my life if far from over and there is still a chance that I still may do the thing you think I never did or do. Additionally, you aren't with me 24/7 so how the fuck you know what I never do.
"Why would you do that?" Obviously to irritate the shit out of you.
"What were you thinking?" Oh I don't know maybe I wasn't thinking and if I was maybe my thoughts centered around I won't get caught.
Condescending is what it is and you can keep it to yourself.
Technology..
With all of the technology we have today they can't come up with a better way to open a can of corn beef that doesn't involve amputating my thumb?
On my way home...
Tired and hungry and this bastard is eating Papa John's pizza right under my nose. Good thing I don't eat pizza...he is lucky his ass didn't get Chipolte or it would have been on carajo.
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
This Ish really pisses me off....
I want to get all Kill Bill on these "Bleep, bleep, bleep - Bleepers."
As reported in CNN.com on January 31, 2012 By Nematullah Sarfraz
Kunduz, Afghanistan (CNN) -- Police in the northern Afghanistan province of Kunduz are looking for a man they say strangled his wife after she bore him a third child that was not a son.
Sher Mohammed, 29, married his 22-year-old wife, Storay, four years ago, police said.
The couple had three daughters, the last of whom was born three months ago, said Khanabad district police chief Sufi Habib. After the youngest daughter was born, Mohammed blamed his wife for not being able to deliver a boy, Habib said. "Finally on Saturday, the man, with the help of his mother, first beat the woman and then strangled her to death," the police chief said. Khanabad is about 50 kilometers (31 miles) from Kunduz city. Police arrested the mother, Wali Hazrata, and detained her at the Kunduz city jail. But her son fled.
In a jailhouse interview, Hazrata said her son's wife committed suicide out of guilt.
"My son did not commit the crime," Hazrata said. "... But after three daughters, Storay herself felt guilty and committed suicide." The report comes weeks after Afghan police said they rescued a 15-year-old girl who was locked up in the basement of her in-laws' house, starved, and had her nails pulled out.
The girl, Sahar Gul, was married off to a 30-year-old man last year. Authorities in northern Baghlan province said the girl reportedly was tortured after she refused to submit to prostitution.
Activists say women continue to suffer in parts of Afghanistan despite overall progress since the fall of the Taliban. In the second quarter of last year, the Afghan Independent Human Rights Commission (AIHRC) registered 1,026 cases of violence against women. In 2010, it recorded 2,700 cases.
In December, gunmen attacked and sprayed an Afghan family with acid in their home after the father rejected a man's bid to marry his teenage daughter. In another case, a 21-year-old, identified only as Gulnaz for her own protection, was sentenced to 12 years in prison after she reported that her cousin's husband had raped her. Her plight attracted international attention when it came out that she had agreed to marry her attacker to gain her freedom and legitimize a daughter conceived in the attack. She was eventually freed, following President Hamid Karzai's intervention. Horia Mosadiq, a London-based Afghan researcher for the rights group Amnesty International, said the abuse inflicted on Storay Mohammed is not an isolated instance. "Generally the human rights situation, and particularly women's rights, is deteriorating," she told CNN. "I am in constant contact with women's rights groups across the country, and they say they are seeing an increase in violence." This is in part because the Afghan government does little to implement or enforce the laws that protect women's rights, she said. She also sees it as a consequence of women across the country gaining greater awareness of their rights, which is leading both to a backlash from men and to more cases of violence being reported. On top of that, the Afghan government's move toward peace and reconciliation talks with the Taliban has led many people to think the current oppression of women will simply continue as it is, Mosadiq said. "We need to make sure that we protect the women -- it's so important that women's rights in Afghanistan are non-negotiable," she said. The alleged involvement of Storay Mohammed's mother-in-law in her abuse is not unusual, Mosadiq added, as women often play a role in violence against other women within the family, as do husbands, fathers and brothers. And there is a heavy cultural pressure to bear sons, who are viewed as the breadwinners, she said, with the birth of a daughter seen as a burden rather than something to celebrate. If the situation of Afghan women is to improve, Mosadiq said, a strong political will is needed at the government level, backed up by strong pressure from the international community. "Where (the international community) puts so much pressure and focus on a military solution, they should also think about the protection of the Afghan people and Afghan women," she said.
As reported in CNN.com on January 31, 2012 By Nematullah Sarfraz
Kunduz, Afghanistan (CNN) -- Police in the northern Afghanistan province of Kunduz are looking for a man they say strangled his wife after she bore him a third child that was not a son.
Sher Mohammed, 29, married his 22-year-old wife, Storay, four years ago, police said.
The couple had three daughters, the last of whom was born three months ago, said Khanabad district police chief Sufi Habib. After the youngest daughter was born, Mohammed blamed his wife for not being able to deliver a boy, Habib said. "Finally on Saturday, the man, with the help of his mother, first beat the woman and then strangled her to death," the police chief said. Khanabad is about 50 kilometers (31 miles) from Kunduz city. Police arrested the mother, Wali Hazrata, and detained her at the Kunduz city jail. But her son fled.
In a jailhouse interview, Hazrata said her son's wife committed suicide out of guilt.
"My son did not commit the crime," Hazrata said. "... But after three daughters, Storay herself felt guilty and committed suicide." The report comes weeks after Afghan police said they rescued a 15-year-old girl who was locked up in the basement of her in-laws' house, starved, and had her nails pulled out.
The girl, Sahar Gul, was married off to a 30-year-old man last year. Authorities in northern Baghlan province said the girl reportedly was tortured after she refused to submit to prostitution.
Activists say women continue to suffer in parts of Afghanistan despite overall progress since the fall of the Taliban. In the second quarter of last year, the Afghan Independent Human Rights Commission (AIHRC) registered 1,026 cases of violence against women. In 2010, it recorded 2,700 cases.
In December, gunmen attacked and sprayed an Afghan family with acid in their home after the father rejected a man's bid to marry his teenage daughter. In another case, a 21-year-old, identified only as Gulnaz for her own protection, was sentenced to 12 years in prison after she reported that her cousin's husband had raped her. Her plight attracted international attention when it came out that she had agreed to marry her attacker to gain her freedom and legitimize a daughter conceived in the attack. She was eventually freed, following President Hamid Karzai's intervention. Horia Mosadiq, a London-based Afghan researcher for the rights group Amnesty International, said the abuse inflicted on Storay Mohammed is not an isolated instance. "Generally the human rights situation, and particularly women's rights, is deteriorating," she told CNN. "I am in constant contact with women's rights groups across the country, and they say they are seeing an increase in violence." This is in part because the Afghan government does little to implement or enforce the laws that protect women's rights, she said. She also sees it as a consequence of women across the country gaining greater awareness of their rights, which is leading both to a backlash from men and to more cases of violence being reported. On top of that, the Afghan government's move toward peace and reconciliation talks with the Taliban has led many people to think the current oppression of women will simply continue as it is, Mosadiq said. "We need to make sure that we protect the women -- it's so important that women's rights in Afghanistan are non-negotiable," she said. The alleged involvement of Storay Mohammed's mother-in-law in her abuse is not unusual, Mosadiq added, as women often play a role in violence against other women within the family, as do husbands, fathers and brothers. And there is a heavy cultural pressure to bear sons, who are viewed as the breadwinners, she said, with the birth of a daughter seen as a burden rather than something to celebrate. If the situation of Afghan women is to improve, Mosadiq said, a strong political will is needed at the government level, backed up by strong pressure from the international community. "Where (the international community) puts so much pressure and focus on a military solution, they should also think about the protection of the Afghan people and Afghan women," she said.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
In memory of...
The only people who like funerals are the funeral directors and the millionaire widows left behind. With that said, I just returned from attending a funeral service for a very dear elderly woman that I had the pleasure of knowing for a short time. As I was listening to the speakers talk so kindly of her, deservedly, I started to think of my own funeral and what my family and friends would say about me…
They would not say things like….
"She always had a kind word to say and never spoke bad about anyone."
"She never complained."
"She lived each day to the fullest."
They would most likely say things like….
"She always knew she would go in some undignified way but I bet she is pissed it was on the crapper."
"She was a beautiful person who had kind words when her meds were working."
"Always had some smartass comment to make."
"That girl loved to get her sleep and eat on."
"If it was purple it was acceptable."
"If you owe her money she is still expecting you to pay her back – give it to one of the kids."
"Regardless if she went up or down, I hope there is a Starbucks because you know how she gets when she doesn't have coffee."
Thankfully, my friends and family love me for who I am regardless. <3
Thursday, January 12, 2012
To implant or not to implant...
So, apparently Cameron Diaz had breast implants. My opinion is this - so friggin what! If I had a size "negative A nugget" I would totally boost up to a B/C. In fact if I had the money I would totally go under the knife. I don't think I would touch with my face (don't want to mess with perfection) but I would definitely get my body worked on (I think God got a little sleepy when he was working from my neck down. 
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Morning Commute
Nothing like the morning commute to make you feel like:
1. You experienced your first orgy - completely sober.
2. It is never to early to drink
3. Pulling a bitches hair (especially the one with the bad frost job and a big brown Marc Jacobs bag on the D).
1. You experienced your first orgy - completely sober.
2. It is never to early to drink
3. Pulling a bitches hair (especially the one with the bad frost job and a big brown Marc Jacobs bag on the D).
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Hold the Drama please!
"Drama - a state, situation, or series of events involving interesting or intense conflict of forces."
It seems no matter how old, educated or wealthy someone is drama is bound to make an appearance in life. Whether it be with family, relationships, jobs or friendships.
It seems to stem from feelings of fear, hurt, insecurity or jealously caused by an action of someone or something. It grows with words connected with: he said/she said; I have to tell you something; and/or I heard.
I find that whether you look for it or not it can find you. The question is how does one avoid it when it arrives?
I ask myself:
1. How much of this is really about me?
2. Can I let this pass and go unaddressed (which usually depends on the amount of pride I have and how much the people involved matter to me)?
3. Will it make a difference in someones life if they know what I know?
4. Would I want to know if it where me?
5. Is it a life and death issue?
Sometimes, I feel grown up enough to walk away and other times I can easily get sucked into the feed but throughout it I make a conscious effort to accept my part in the role I played. Could I have handled this situation different and would it have made a difference?
Bottom line - when the credits go up acknowledge your role and hold yourself accountable for the choices you make and the actions you take.
It seems no matter how old, educated or wealthy someone is drama is bound to make an appearance in life. Whether it be with family, relationships, jobs or friendships.
It seems to stem from feelings of fear, hurt, insecurity or jealously caused by an action of someone or something. It grows with words connected with: he said/she said; I have to tell you something; and/or I heard.
I find that whether you look for it or not it can find you. The question is how does one avoid it when it arrives?
I ask myself:
1. How much of this is really about me?
2. Can I let this pass and go unaddressed (which usually depends on the amount of pride I have and how much the people involved matter to me)?
3. Will it make a difference in someones life if they know what I know?
4. Would I want to know if it where me?
5. Is it a life and death issue?
Sometimes, I feel grown up enough to walk away and other times I can easily get sucked into the feed but throughout it I make a conscious effort to accept my part in the role I played. Could I have handled this situation different and would it have made a difference?
Bottom line - when the credits go up acknowledge your role and hold yourself accountable for the choices you make and the actions you take.
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
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